Thank you for praying for me as I have been going through some real struggles. It is not health for the Lord has been quite gracious to me. I have lost a few pounds which I needed to do and am feeling fine. It is not a financial or social or personal problem either. It has been a spiritual battle within me. I find myself wasting time on lesser important things and not doing the things that are of eternal value. One of the things that I have neglected is posting here on the website and I felt that I needed to address it openly and honestly.
It’s not that I haven’t had time, for I get the same allotment that you and everyone else get, 24 hours a day. Not even a second more or a second less but exactly 24 hours a day. It is not how much time I have but how I manage it. Lately, I have been letting it manage me and that was my sin. Just as you can just sit in a boat on a river and remain in one position, life is constantly moving like the river and either you let it carry you down river or you paddle to go upriver. If you try to anchor yourself in one position you will eventually sink because the river is constantly changing. Not only is it always moving but sometimes it has more water and sometimes it has less. Sometimes the wind blows and sometimes it is at rest. Also, the seasons are constantly changing and bring various types of debris that affect your travel.
Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Itis not alike I was doing something that was sinful or immoral. I wasn’t being productive in my stewardship. It doesn’t have to be a sinful activity in order for it to be a sin. Any old weight will do. Weights are unnecessary activity that consumes your attention and resources so that you are not effective in doing the will of God. James 4:17 Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.
I do not offer excuses, but rather, I ask from you forgiveness. We are all on a journey to eternity and the decisions we make determine not only the journey now but also how we are completed for eternity.